Not What I Want

I spent an entire day working on a piece of writing that refused to come to fruition. It did not want to be born. Finally, I walked away and went to the chapel.

My hope was that I would have a revelation. God would take all the pieces, shuffle them around, and put them back together. I had hoped. But, no.

Jeremiah 18:4 says…But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.

Like the clay, it was marred. It was never going to be what I wanted it to be. It was meant to be something else.

What are you trying to force? Could it be that it’s supposed to be something else? Let it go. It will either die or it will be reborn into a new and beautiful thing.

We’re Going to Celebrate 11 Years

Someone asked me recently if I’m the same person I was 11 years ago. Umm, I’m not the same person I was 18 months ago! And 11 years ago? What did I even know?

We spent time this week planning our 11 year celebration of @devonairecommunity It’s been a long 18 months and we’re ready to bring some joy back into our lives and our community.

Then today I was thinking about stepping out on faith in September 2010. I only made a five year plan. LOL. I should have thought bigger. But I never saw most of this last decade coming.

The night before we dedicated our building, I went in to make sure we were ready to go. I turned out the lights and pulled the French doors closed to the fellowship hall. Then, as if a wave washed over me, I started to weep. I knelt on the sanctuary floor and wept before God. Why would He ever choose me to lead His people? Why does He choose us at all?

I’ve asked that question many times. I don’t know. Maybe I see people like Janet and Woody and John and Kevin, and I want them to have a place to belong. I want there to be room at the table for more of those who feel like all the seats are taken. And maybe God knew I could feel their pain and see what God could do in their lives.

All of this…each person I’ve met along the way…they’ve changed me. I would like to think I’m a better person because we’ve crossed paths. Thank you for giving me a chance!


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